Thursday, February 17, 2011

And Then Another Week Goes By…

How does one split focus?
I don’t need spectacles to tell me
When something is real
Or really fake.
The decisions in the day the
Places that I go
Are all a device to an end.
But what is the end?
What do I put the focus on
In order to see most clearly,
And when I choose, does everything else
Simply blur?
I prioritize and end up feeling
Like a cat on hot coals
I keep jumping.  Flailing.  Prickling.

The numbers keep spinning,
The clock keeps turning,
And then another week goes by.

Spinning into infinity a tornado,
Sharp curves, tunnel vision and
Chaos ensues.
The calm I force to wash over me
Is a device of alarm.
My panicked heart thumps
To the rhythm of a garbage truck
Or a car passing by
Or the hum of the computer fan.
I wake up to find the sheets thrown about
And the fun of the night before
Leaves little to grasp
Of what needs to be done.
Broke and happy,
Underworked and overstressed.

The days wind down and nothing gets done
But I have so much to do.
And then, another week, goes bye.

9 comments:

#1Nana said...

Your piece captures the balancing act that we all face...trapped by structure or disorganized and the real challenge of figuring out what really is the most important.

Since retiring I have many less stress attacks, but I manage to procrastinate more. Go figure!

Almost Precious said...

This could well be "The Ode to Modern Man". Our work week may have, in theory, gotten shorter, yet we tend to work longer. The internet, a boon to humanity has also become humanity's bane. Too much to do, too many i's to dot and t's to cross. Miss a few days, a week goes by and those numbers we strive to keep fall by the wayside. Pay attention to one thread and six more come unraveled.

The good news is that we're not in this boat alone. Look around you and you'll see a whole crew singing the same song. :)

Joan said...

Oh yes! So true....and another week goes. :)
It was great meeting you and Matt!!

Linda Myers said...

I have a list today, because we're going out of town tomorrow for five days.

Which absolutely has to get done? Then, can I summon the self-discipline to do those things rather than the more pleasant ones?

Tabitha Bird said...

Yes, time... where does it go? And where should one look while it is going?

Beautifull words here.

Jenn Flynn-Shon said...

Thanks for the nice words everyone! Its so difficult to fit it all in at times its like I'm shrinking while other days I'm like Superwoman...such is how life goes though right?

Priorities are only worries with a different name. Yeah, that's it lol

Rosebud Collection said...

I will tell you this, this winter is enough to kill anyones spirit..I am so sick of it and they are saying more snow..You know Jenn..weather like this is very depressing..as we both know.
Just think, you will be out of here soon..Keep looking up..
xoxoRosebud/Carolyn
Then to have a computer give me grief..still not right, but at least I can get around..haha..

Suldog said...

Drugs have helped me through similar situations in the past...

Rosebud Collection said...

Read this again..Yep, sounds like me..just wanted to make sure I read it right the first time..haha..xoxoRosebud/Carolyn